10.25.06
Posted in Uncategorized, diary at 7:54 am by cj
whose there to read?
blogging.. i don’t miss it actually, but i feel i owe an update.. though nobody’s reading naman.
as of my last post, I was very angry.. all the words you can refer to to it, would best describe how i felt at that time. i felt betrayed and used.. for the second time around. it was a shame in short.
to make it worst, it was just the start of my agony.. it may sound so drama, but i really went through so much.. so much, that at one point i thought I was insane.. ahaha. it may not be obvious, but i felt crazy at one time. crying and laughing at the same time.. can be the worst and best feeling. it left a scar.. and that one can’t be erase. i have to step up… i have to move on and not hold back. it was full of misery.. i never really expected that will happen again, not with him. but it happened.. and all is history now.
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09.20.06
Posted in diary at 11:21 am by cj
yeah, it seems.. there are so many things goin thru my mind, i wish.. i knew better how to handle this things. hay… im so stressed out. i need a bit of my life before this thesis career mode, when everything.. was ok, was clear.. and was there… i missing it.
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08.26.06
Posted in diary at 3:19 pm by cj
SPECIAL MENTION TO THE PERSON I WAS WITH AWHILE AGO.. I APPRECIATE ALL THE LITTLE STUFF U DO FOR ME.. AND I COULD NEVER BE HAPPY RIGHT NOW WITHOUT YOU.. MWAAH!
*kilig*
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08.24.06
Posted in diary, drama at 12:33 pm by cj
finally, got this thing off my mind.. i’m worry free. im sorry God, for bein stubborn and all. oh well.. ive been wanting to makeover my blog, but i cant seem to do it. anyone there? hay naku friends wants to volunteer? im not good at web designing stuffs, a good theme will do.. i also for got how to use the ftp stuff. arrgh. so please.. someone who could volunteer?! haha.my blog is so boring. i dont even like the color scheme. argh. basta,soon.. magbabago na rin tong blog ko. hmmm.. helllppp!!!
this past few days, ive been busy working my butt off. haha.. alaws arepz eh. so i cant be called a totally bum na. as ivementioned before, hirap yun your about to graduate and u still have to finish some things. ala ka na rin allowance ksi its irregular skool stuff. it makes me sad.. because i tend to utang. bad me. kaya nagaaway kami lagi ng sister ko. nonetheless, im surviving.. may allowance din naman ako kahit onti sa part time ko plus im enjoying naman. so fair fair na rin dba.
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08.19.06
Posted in diary at 2:00 pm by cj
wee…
so many things happened tlga.. haha! ill enumerate na lang:
1. bumness
2. job hunt
3. bumness
4. part time job
5. bumness
6. happily in love (haha!)
7. bumness
8. worried of so many things
9. bumness
10. GC officer (yay)
yah yah yah… i am a BUM! wahaha.. and im proud of it. i used to be a big one.. pero i had a part time na nga.. and soon hopefully, ill have a real work. so i can shop till i drop.. hehe! so far, the results of my job hunt is fairly ok.. i knew naman i didn’t really did well. kasi full of programming stuffs and i committed myself to be a network engineer or some sort. ahaha. after bumness, there’s this.. happily in love thing up there. haha. hmmm,what can i say?! isn’t it obvious?! haha. next is im worried of so many things.. it’s a personal thing.. can’t go to details. hay. sob. sigh. after that, the GC thing. gawd. yes i am an officer. auditor to be specific.. and what do i get?!! a 25% discount from any grad pictorial package…. grrr. ernk. i already had my picture taken.. last term, when i dreamt of marching this august.. isn’t it a waste?! hay. hmm, but im thinking of having it ulit,para wala lang. another souvenir and camwhoreness. haha! at least ill have a makeup on.. and ill feel pretty that day. haha. feeling.
NOTE: bumness - n. aside from being a real BUM @ home; stuck with completing her THESISnessss.
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however, GOD has been always good to me.. even if im such a little brat at times. love you Lord!
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07.10.06
Posted in diary, drama at 12:31 pm by cj
u see i was to post something earlier than this, but i got sleepy and locked my self up and started sleeping..Zzzzzz.Zzzzzz..!
well, here i am. awake again.. staring in this white space in my laptop,trying to gain some worthy stories to be typed in here. what da heck am i doin?! i dont even know who bothers to read my posts.. well, awhile ago also, i was trying to upload new skin so i cud a have fresh start, a new layout wud help.. but then, i dont know how.. or at least i forgot, my laptop was reformatted this summer and that goes also for a part of my brain.. i also forgot how to BLOG. owkie owkie.. ( i know would jong wud laugh at this part,hehe.. im just practicing my english skills,u know.. haha! nag panget..) but then i still like to try.. so enjoy!
we all know and we all can see i haven’t really blogged anything, except for those, cheesy, mushy, ewwy, dramaness of mine.. eew! but then, it was all true.. and that’s all im gonna tell about it because some guy there,hmmp! ( u know hu u are! ) hahaha! waaah, im still lost for words… i dont where to begin, uh uhm… during those drama days of mine, i was juggling both school and internship. see, that’s how hardworking i am.. haha! i wish it was a serious thing, it was.. half only though. so i passed my last CCNA class and really did well, haha. 2.75 not bad. ok lemme give some details, it was my last term of taking my specialization and boy i am relieved knowing that.. but when i knew She is my professor, i kinda panicked.. well, yeah i panicked. coz She is really intimidating and all.. She knew a lot about the subject, well why would my school appoint her as the lab head for Cisco,right?! so to cut the story short, i studied hard, hard enough to pass?! nah, that’s what i used to do in my previous CCNA subject, but this time i studied harder enpugh so i cud pass and at the same time learn something out of my hardwork, ahaha! and i did.. yup, u heard it, in fact a lot of things.. basta, i got interested in CISCO! wee, not bad for taking that as my specialization, huh!? hehe.. hmm, then.. my internship. it lasted for 240 hours, it was more than 1 month i think. yun, i learned a lot to.. got interested im my specialization not my course though,haha! and why i enjoyed it so much, even if it’s in my mom’s working place.. i got paid 50 bucks a day! wahaha.. i know its to small, but after those 240 hours, it gave almost 1,5.. wee, just enough for my luho.. as if meron, ndi naman.. just when i thought i should spend only my free time with my family.. then my friends started to bugged me. haha. just joking. well, i had several times i went out with my friend/S, had fun.. renewed nga old friendships. it was also a time for me and argin to bond, well.. we knew each other since elementary days and we saw each other in love and heratbroken.. but this time, we saw ourselves drooling for some gwapo guys in the NCAA opening, haha.. and followed by several SSC-R games, kasi she has this really good good friend, who eventually became my good friend too.. he is really nice and tall and good player and a gentleman.. kilig nnaman kuya! so aside from NCAA days, im still looking forward for some more free tickets.. haha! i also got some time to bond with seraiah pipol, well some of them at least, it was all good.. hehe, i still miss u guys.. hope to have that breakfast and more updates. dba! hmmm, wut else?! oh bfore i forgot, during those times ive mentioned my email is flooded with like numerous emails from gc groups and out batch group, cant blame them.. but there are days im totally annoyed with their nonsense topic, hehe! all is settled now,i guess.. peace pipol,hehe! but but… of course,it is not settled.. why!? askin me why!? because i just checked again my email and messages were still tolerable but the news really got me.. the AUGUST Graduation March is resumed.. and prolly the NOVEMBER (which is the scheduled one, for our batch) will be postponed. how sad.. well not sad. how annoying mapua and picc. first, they told us it will be moved to november because picc needs renovation.. and now, AUGUST.. what!? i hate it.. i dont even know when is the date scheduled for us to march given we finish our requirements.. i hate it. sooper. u know, i am having a hard time staying here at home.. bummin myself for nothing. pushing myself to work work on my assigned thesis part.. but i cant start, because im damn lazy to do it.. u know the feeling that ur about graduate but then this stupid thesis gets in the way and u have no other option to finish it so you cud march.. well, hell yeah.. that’s how i feel. i feel so terrible, im not like this.. or at least i didn’t imagine myself feeling like this toward the ends of my academic life. errnk! its just that there are so many things i want to do.. but i cant coz my number one prioprity is that stupid thesis. yeah, im bad. stupid thesis huh. but it is, i feel it is stupid because i dont know what i should do.. i can do alone, i cant pressure my thesismates coz they all have lives of their own and tasks were divided among us. but then. arrggh… i just wanna get this thesis out of my system. haha, i sound so mad.. but im jsut exaggerating it. hehe, but still i wanna finish this and i dunno where to start… can anybody volunteer to teach me vb.net database from scratch? or vb. net at least? warning: i am a slow learner.. but fun to be with, haha! hay hay, i wish someone would help.. someone i know dba. well, what can i say.. u got me, im a BUM! i hate it.. it sucks, know why?! i getting fat again.. i miss eating.. ok, so lemme clear this out.. only few pipol notice that i shed some weight (wuttaword, shed?! haha. ) basta, i dont want to blab about my weight issue, its kinda sensitive u know. wahahahha! im a bum, im broke.. huhuhu! prolly,one of these days.. ill straighten up my priorities, u know.. they have been all jammed up in my mind. there’s this driving lessons (too expensie kasi), french language lessons at mapua (does anybody know ccesc contact number?), vb.net lessons at informatics (anna got me thinking abt it), refresher course (my CCNA prof told us abt it, i dunno wut happened though).. and the list goes on, like culinary arts, eh?!, my australia trip (continuing my education?!), trip to europe, hongkong shopping and disneyland, more of travels……… and what da!? of course finding a job! that’s why i really want.. do i really want it?! i hate myself when i contradict things i say and things i do, its so complicated.. and im having a hard time expalining things.. but all i can say, my life is full of contradiction but hey, i am loving it everyday, just like argin! hahaha… so for the love stuff!? hmm, let’s just say.. ive realized some things,love myself even more and taking things slow.. just like what i said to my closest friends. speaking of them, uhm.. dont u just gals, haha.. realize that no matter how distant ur friends are, when it comes to matters of the heart.. u always understand in some sort of something. haha. that works for me.. and i thank GOD for them. really.
my shoutout to yads,argin,shae,zar,lene and all the guys. haha. so i guess that’s what happened to me for the past weeks/months haven’t blogged anything but drama.
a comment would not hurt,thanks i appreciate you..esp. hay naku pipol! 
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06.05.06
Posted in thoughts, diary at 2:56 pm by cj
is it possible?? does it occur instantly or evolves naturally?? tell me what it is.. so i can understand u and everything that has happened………
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05.31.06
Posted in diary at 12:20 pm by cj
wee.. ngayon na lang ako nagkaron ng freetime for net dito sa lab. yesterday,half day kami ni pawziness sa office.. then we went to Cisco Networking Academy Program Seminar and Workshops 2006 held at Angelo King International Convention Center. aiun,saya.. lots of freebies,seminar, and i won a cisco bag from the raffle. wee. that made my day. wahaha. babaw. im not really lucky in raffles or such contests, i done even believe in luck.. more so, meant to be lang na tawagin si “charisse sapitan” wee.. haha! exaj na ako.. masaya naman kasi. parang unti unti ko narrealize un benefits ng singlehood.. wala kang inaalala. after that, joycee, me and pawziness decided to go mapua intra.. to buy a cute shirt. pero sabi nga nun friend ko,wala.. pero kulet. we still went there and looked.. but to our dismay esp. pawz’ frustration for the pink tumbler.. nagpunta pa kami ng sm manila.. at nagikot at nakabili na si pawziness. un,we went home by 7pm.. and i arrived ng 8pm,knowing.. walang tao sa bahay.. and i dont have a key. so poor and tired me,had to wait sa neighborness namin… nakikain na din,hanggang 9pm.. hay. sana dba nakapag rest na ako.. aiun,nagpuyat pa ako kasi un pc ko.. dumating na. excited.. naginstall ng lhat.. ang dami pang ggwn. waah. so far so un lang and aking musing and randomness ng life ko! bbye..
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05.29.06
Posted in diary, hatred at 3:54 pm by cj
AS IF…….. haha! asa pa akong matatapos ko.. oh well, i must admit.. i am so excited for my graduation. its like my dream come true.. haha. pero un na nga.. na unsyame na xa.. kasi nho. mapua tlga oh.. ayaw kmi paalisin. IMAGINE! right now,7th week.. which is the week we are suppose to pass defense forms and docu.. if we really like to finish this term. and when did they tell us all about the new thesis rules?!!! ask me!?!! just LAST WEEK! 6th week.. caramba! akalain.. are we robots!? can they tell us na lang ng ganun.. i know they dont expect us to do that.. AS IF kakayanin dba. so, mapua.. hmmp! kainis.. bakit ganun.. it means i have to extend for one itsy bitsy 3 months=1 term for my thesis continuation. haayayayayayyaya… grrsh! im not blaming my thesismates.. ha! as in no no no.. kasi they’re super bait and understanding. ok lang yun.. ayoko ng maging pessimistic. though, im in the process of reovering to some sort of.. blasphemy. whaha, anu kya un! kaya namin to.. are GOAL: FINISH THESIS JUST BEFORE MIDTERM! O dba.. kaya un. i know we can.. andyan si God.. un reliable friend ko,thanks.. grabe ka. anyhow, un… kahit sa dami ng stress na iniisip ko.. kasi ang dami ko pag hinahabol na oras sa ojt at may project pa dun. andyan si God at mga friends ko.. and that is too much to keep me goin…. insane! haha…aiun,yan lang.. much better na sa previous post ko nho?!? but yes, its still there.. im still crying once in a while. its not that easy.. bbye!
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05.09.06
Posted in diary at 11:54 am by cj
HAHAHAHA…wala lang. nauubos na ata ang enjoyment ko sa ojt. puro flyff kasi pinaguusapan.. onti na lang nakukulit ko. haha. pero oks pa rin naman..kahit pa onti na un mga job order everyday.. at aalis na un kuya ko. nakoo,enjoy pa din kesa pumasok sa skool.. at etu pa,gagawa na kami ng project ni fhawz.. hirap,help naman sa load balancing. sana, matapos namin din at madefend ng maayos. and thanks to kuya lowenz, sooper.. thesis mode xa. hehe.. un tlga mga prayers ko,matapos namin lahat.. but for the mean time,punta muna ako subic at baguio sa thursday to monday.. haha. ultimate vacation muna.. but there are chance umaattend ako sa seminar sa sat,kasi required. malaman.. haha. but im sure maeenjoy ko to. i missin someone who is sooper busy na.. hay 
sana matuloy un friday plans ntn. yee! un lang. bbyee pipol!!!
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