11.14.06
stucked
yeah.. i think so. im a bum forever (wag sna) and i RESENT love now!
aint that great!?
11.09.06
hay.. miserable!
for the longest time… i am still goin thru so much. i dont get why, i just need to getaway with it.. with all of it. there were days i thought im getting better, than yesterday… i dont know. i going around cirlces, or only just a small space left out.. i dont know if im empty or what…. i just wanted to be ok, to be normal again.. no pretentions. enjoying my life the way i am supposed to.. but then maybe, this is how it works, at least for me… a girl who gave her heart out twice and was left with a broken heart more than twice. its like ten times raise to the power of n. i just dont know, its not just about the crazy heart broken story… there is more to it, having finish college.. i still dont know what’s next, what is after this.. am i ready or just too stubborn to face it all. i cant say where my life is headed.. there are things that must be left out, i know… but i dont know if i had the power or just even the will to do so.. to step up.. to turn away from all of it. i guess, i am just used to having someone being there..