05.22.05
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it was nice a feeling na i-let out ko ung depression ko. kasi last friday nakapag usap kami ni ate divine (cell leader ko) i opened to her my problem and was kinda relieved sa sinabi nya. i am really praying na mag work out na yung org at pati yung mga officers maging active na ulit. its really hard for me to be leader, weakness ko pa lalo yung i-lead ung same age ko. i really don’t know why,pero cgro kasi i have personal sins that really distract me from serving God the way He wants me to be. kahit sa church kanina, it was sad kasi nag-prepare ako to teach children e wala naman nka-attend. tas one leader told me to teach the youth, as in like me… what! i said na im teaching po the sunday skool for kids.. haay. i dont like big responsibilities, i guess im not ready or.. im afraid to fail. oh Lord,help me with this.
uh,yesterday we went to cuneta astrodome.. for some church thing. basta. but the latter part of the day was nice coz i got to see once again my ninongs and ninangs. they were my parents’ friends way back their kabataan years @ unida. i am so amazed by their friendship. everybody was there, i mean their whole family and enjoying the time.. the bonding. nakakatuwas kasi u can see tlga that they cherished their youthful moments. im sure pag laki ko din,ganun din ako. God has really put them together kasi everyone is a ninong or a ninang of each child. kaya sa june 18 may family day kami. nakakatuwa and my ninang teh gave me a fuschia pink esprit bag. it was sooo cute. i planned nga na maging bag ko xa for a very long tym,sana lang. kasi i really liked it.
tapos.. as usual, parang my weekend wouldn’t be complete pag walang misunderstanding. nakaka-depress tlga yun.. i just hate the feeling na ur being hated by the person u wud least expect it or man lang for a simple reason galit na sayo. kaasar,pag nagalit parang walang bukas. right then and there.. for days u wud be nothing for that person. minsan kasi dba we need to be mature and not use our pride. it wont do anything for us,it wud just be a stupid reason bakit ka nagalit. like..”kasi alm mo naman ma-pride ako..” as if,i wud always accept that reason.. yes it is a reason, but its not an excuse.. tama ba ako!? aargh.. i just hate tlg yung feeling na ganun. ay nkoo.. weekend can be relaxing and too exhausting.. lalo na pag iniisip mo pa.
haay,for the following weeks.. magiging busy na ako sa shooting.. haay,hirap tlgang maging artista… nyahaha.. just wait and see!
ciao,ill post some pix from my weekend.. we went swimming pala kanina,dami tao.. un lng..