05.30.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 9:01 pm by mhee
uh,i got nothing to say. im busy at skool,kinda. ah,i really don’t know what to say. i just feel quiet. feeling ba un. basta im quiet. medyo kapagod this past few days, i really dont know what i did pero parang exhausted ako. medyo nahihirapan din ako sa ibang subjects ko,d ko magetz un explanation ng prof ko. ah,bsta..parang she just reads the lecture.. walang mxdong explanation tas with the other naman.. im so shy of raising my hand to answer a boardwork. oh please,i need to pass all 3 of them. lapit nnman finals.. whhew,ambilis. 3rd year na ako.. nyayayaya.. quiet!
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05.25.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 7:15 pm by mhee
wooh,we started shooting yesterday.. it was fun,kaya lang pasaway yung iba.. as in consuming and wasting time and memory ng digicam.. i brought some dress for the fairy scene and a make-up kit.. kaya lang we ran out of time kasi lead actress na-late.. hehe.. pero it was fine,it was good for a start except those pasaways.. tas aiun,kanina.. we shoot some scenes with, finally me.. having a dialogue.. i was too conscious of the camera.. hehe.. kainis nga,then tomorrow we have to shoot again.. kaya lang with the same clothes i wore today.. waah,good thing i was able to read taimzy’s email.. kaya nilalaban na as of this moment ung blouse ko.. ill change naman my pants tomorrow.. hehe! the experience of this movie making is quite nice kaya lang you really need patience sa dami ng takes,sa mga pasaway.. ayayay! hopefully tomorrow ma-finish na yung shoot pero i think isa na lang scene ko. ako ang faithful friendly friendz ni Grazzie.. hehe! just wait and see..yun lang tlga nangyayari skn.. in some way pala,i feel loved.. hahaha… i think..
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05.22.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 7:13 pm by mhee
it was nice a feeling na i-let out ko ung depression ko. kasi last friday nakapag usap kami ni ate divine (cell leader ko) i opened to her my problem and was kinda relieved sa sinabi nya. i am really praying na mag work out na yung org at pati yung mga officers maging active na ulit. its really hard for me to be leader, weakness ko pa lalo yung i-lead ung same age ko. i really don’t know why,pero cgro kasi i have personal sins that really distract me from serving God the way He wants me to be. kahit sa church kanina, it was sad kasi nag-prepare ako to teach children e wala naman nka-attend. tas one leader told me to teach the youth, as in like me… what! i said na im teaching po the sunday skool for kids.. haay. i dont like big responsibilities, i guess im not ready or.. im afraid to fail. oh Lord,help me with this.
uh,yesterday we went to cuneta astrodome.. for some church thing. basta. but the latter part of the day was nice coz i got to see once again my ninongs and ninangs. they were my parents’ friends way back their kabataan years @ unida. i am so amazed by their friendship. everybody was there, i mean their whole family and enjoying the time.. the bonding. nakakatuwas kasi u can see tlga that they cherished their youthful moments. im sure pag laki ko din,ganun din ako. God has really put them together kasi everyone is a ninong or a ninang of each child. kaya sa june 18 may family day kami. nakakatuwa and my ninang teh gave me a fuschia pink esprit bag. it was sooo cute. i planned nga na maging bag ko xa for a very long tym,sana lang. kasi i really liked it.
tapos.. as usual, parang my weekend wouldn’t be complete pag walang misunderstanding. nakaka-depress tlga yun.. i just hate the feeling na ur being hated by the person u wud least expect it or man lang for a simple reason galit na sayo. kaasar,pag nagalit parang walang bukas. right then and there.. for days u wud be nothing for that person. minsan kasi dba we need to be mature and not use our pride. it wont do anything for us,it wud just be a stupid reason bakit ka nagalit. like..”kasi alm mo naman ma-pride ako..” as if,i wud always accept that reason.. yes it is a reason, but its not an excuse.. tama ba ako!? aargh.. i just hate tlg yung feeling na ganun. ay nkoo.. weekend can be relaxing and too exhausting.. lalo na pag iniisip mo pa.
haay,for the following weeks.. magiging busy na ako sa shooting.. haay,hirap tlgang maging artista… nyahaha.. just wait and see!
ciao,ill post some pix from my weekend.. we went swimming pala kanina,dami tao.. un lng..
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05.19.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 9:52 pm by mhee
oh well,yup.. u heard it. i finally had a rest day,i just feel so tired. coz u know,yesterday i got 3 exams.. and im hoping ill be able to pass them all. im a bit depressed right now,i just realized that sometimes i am not being able to do my responsibilities. especially,bein a leader. i dont know why,i mean most of the time d ako responsible. nkakasad,lalo na if u know its for God. nakakahiya,kasi i feel so… blank. im really praying na ill fix the whole org thing,i have to be responsible. i have to be.
even in my studies,feeling ko yung efforts ko kulang pa rin. i mean after studying,pag nasa test na.. uh,d ko mgamit ung mga formula. nkakaasar lng. i want to do good in my studies especially now kasi i only got 9 units=3 subjects. urgh. i dont know. i really dont know.
plus i miss my friends,i miss hanging out with them.. or just talking over the phone.. yads,gin.. ah,i miss u!
i really dont know what i feel,i am just so dissapointed with myself.
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05.17.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 9:07 am by mhee
baby baby baby..haha! aliw ako dun sa pldt song. aiun,medyo d na ako sad. bati na daw kami. ang kulet tlg ng pagbati namin. nakakatawa.sana lang dba d na maulet. well,aga ko ngyn nho. instead of watching dvds,im here facing the computer. magaaral ako. waah. i have 3 exams tmrw.. grr.i have to pass na. tas later,ill be goin to skool kasi i have to pass some papers. haay.ayayayayay. tas last nyt,im so tired.. traffic kasi. geez.. anu ba yung mga salita ko. sometimes i feel im so mayabang,so im really sorry kung kau ganun din tingin nyo skn. hehe. so much 4 that,aral na muna ako.. ciao!
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05.16.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 8:09 am by mhee
haay,eto nanaman ako. nalulungkot. nyehehe. kasi bad gurl ako. i let that one special person down,hehe. pero totoo,haay. kainis tlga. bakit ko pa ginawa un. nagsisisi na po ako. aaah,wala rin magagawa to. naiinis lang tlg ako sa ginawa ko. ewan. i want to see him,but im afraid. haay,i dont know.kainis!
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05.04.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 5:27 pm by mhee
nka-blog na rin… hehe.. well,it was like days since my darn pc got fixed but i wasn’t in the mood for blogging. there is so much to tell yet little time. ayoko lang kasing mgaing madrama,kasi some pipol thinks that my blog is for my kdramahan. yeah ryt! who cares nho.. anyways,many things happened.. haay,but it was fun. some are downs and most of them are ups. im so blessed coz i got to share it to my bestfriend.. or whatever. well,i really don’t care.. kung anu man meron kami. basta im happy,i suppose u guys out there know who i am talking about. haha. so eto,medyo tamad na ako magaaral. ewan ko ba,i not feeling good today. so i didn’t listened that much to the lesson and i think i wont pass my first quiz sa discrete.. haay. kainis. kasi naman,masama tlga pkirmdm ko pero ang tagal ko din sa skool. nkpgaway lang ako,pero nkakatawa. ewan. oh well,its been a while.. and i still don’t feel blogging in my thoughts.. ciao!
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