02.28.05
smart love
u know how weird it is when u are brokenhearted thenear different songs. esp. love songs,weird kasi parang narrelate mo sa story mo yung mga songs. haha. corny. pero totoo. haay. d ko alam paano ko ioovercome yung mga struggles ko. wait. oops. alam ko naman tlga, its just hard foe me to put in into action. grr. kainis ung attitude ko na ganun. i miss him kasi. sobra tlga. im not yet over it. though,the topic sa youth fellowship eh smart love. kahit papaano eh, ive learned something from it. haay, i was moved and touched by the message yesterday. it made me cry though no one noticed. haay. si God tlga,ang mabait. the speaker said everything i am feeling. its ok daw that i have this feeling for someone pero i have to hold on to it. i should consider many things. and if and only if i am ready then God will just put the right man for me. i have to put God in the center of a relationship. i thought i did that. pero i admit, we committed so many mistakes. and i guess this is the consequence. i have to accept it. ceej,u have to. there is anything you could do if u keep on crying. haay. i wish, it will end soon. it is so depressing kasi. i prayed yesterday that ill surrender my life to Him. i asked Him to control my life. God will be the author of my love story. He will be and i can wait for it. I will, with God’s wisdom i will love smart. haha. pero totoo yun,hard tlga. pero ggwn ko na. i hope he will do the same. hekhek. i miss hm though,i wish he was there yesterday. haay. im still not ok ok tlg.