02.28.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 8:34 am by mhee
u know how weird it is when u are brokenhearted thenear different songs. esp. love songs,weird kasi parang narrelate mo sa story mo yung mga songs. haha. corny. pero totoo. haay. d ko alam paano ko ioovercome yung mga struggles ko. wait. oops. alam ko naman tlga, its just hard foe me to put in into action. grr. kainis ung attitude ko na ganun. i miss him kasi. sobra tlga. im not yet over it. though,the topic sa youth fellowship eh smart love. kahit papaano eh, ive learned something from it. haay, i was moved and touched by the message yesterday. it made me cry though no one noticed. haay. si God tlga,ang mabait. the speaker said everything i am feeling. its ok daw that i have this feeling for someone pero i have to hold on to it. i should consider many things. and if and only if i am ready then God will just put the right man for me. i have to put God in the center of a relationship. i thought i did that. pero i admit, we committed so many mistakes. and i guess this is the consequence. i have to accept it. ceej,u have to. there is anything you could do if u keep on crying. haay. i wish, it will end soon. it is so depressing kasi. i prayed yesterday that ill surrender my life to Him. i asked Him to control my life. God will be the author of my love story. He will be and i can wait for it. I will, with God’s wisdom i will love smart. haha. pero totoo yun,hard tlga. pero ggwn ko na. i hope he will do the same. hekhek. i miss hm though,i wish he was there yesterday. haay. im still not ok ok tlg.
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02.25.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 8:50 am by mhee
i had a nice day yesterday. sort of. i was with him. we ate out and chat. pero we didn’t talk about us. haay. i miss him. it made me cry nanaman. i miss him so much. so much.
anyways, its pipol power biyernes. i have nothing to say kasi i wasn’t born yet at that time. oh well, it still gives me a rest day. but i have to study at archi. we will have a 150 points exam tmrw. delikado kasi ako dito.
i hate myself for always thinking of him though nababawasan na. naiinis pa rin ako. haay. bakit ba ganun. i miss him talaga. grr.
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02.23.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 12:22 pm by mhee
im at the lab. kinda ok,kasi i was able to talk to my long lost fwend. tyka i was with my very good frnd ppsok sa skool. wasn’t able to buy the shoes i like though. i still miss him. can’t believe it did happened. haay. i miss everything. i have to be ok,soon. very soon.
later: we’ll be knowing the ‘decision’ yep the decision. though,kainis kasi it makes a big isyu na. dami ng nangyri. kainis lang. thank God sana tlga maayos na. haay.
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Posted in Uncategorized at 9:26 am by mhee
nothing new. its the same old me. at skool, isyu about malayan is still there. even worst, leaders are not united. haay. im in a quest of setting my life straight. i want to be busy. i dont want to be alone. im just saddened about all this. ang dami kong iniicp. every time im alone, i think of it. haay. it is so damn hard. if he only knew.
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02.21.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 7:35 pm by mhee
When a GIRL is quiet, Millions of things are running in her mind. When a GIRL is not arguing, She is thinking deeply. When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions, She is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers “i’m fine” after a few seconds, She is not at all fine. When a GIRL stares at you, She is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest, She is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a GIRL calls you everyday, She is seeking for your attention. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday, She wants to be pampered. When a GIRL sms’s u everyday, She wants you to reply at least once. When a GIRL says I love you, She means it. When a GIRL says that she can’t live without you, She has made up her mind that you are her future. When a GIRL says “i miss you”, No one in this world can miss you more than that
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Posted in Uncategorized at 11:58 am by mhee
bracelet namin ni beshi ko!
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Posted in Uncategorized at 11:39 am by mhee
duhdhee ko. miss na kita. sooper.
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Posted in Uncategorized at 10:40 am by mhee
its been like daysss.. so many things happened. as in so many. painful ones. very. oh well,sometimes i think im to exaj. but its too painful to lose someone you really love. haay. normal stories of broken hearted people. but still,i am hurting. until now. if only he knew. i cry myself to sleep. i pray to God that this feeling or whatever wud go away. i am begging u,pls go away. i felt something really special for him. something i thought would last, up to i dunno. basta. i love him, way too much i guess. i drove him away from me. i pushed myself way too hard. it was very depressing. it felt like my world suddenly changed. too deep. too exaj. so much to tell, so much to cry about. its so sad. really sad.
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Posted in Uncategorized at 12:10 am by mhee
sooper baduy twag ko nho. pero miss ko na duhdhee ko. im thinking positive right now. was urged i guess to write something nice about him. he is the love of my life. though, we are not actuallty together and i lost him already (but not totally ah) he is my love. his my companion. he’s been there for me. he stood by me. he kept me. he made me feel special. nothing compares to what he made me feel about myself. he is so honest, that’s why i am still hurting. he is more mature than me. he is my sooper friend. he is my ultimate crush. he goes to church with me, @ our church. he accepted me wholeheartedly,though he hates my pasaway ugali. he makes me smile. he loves jollibee’s burger steak,whether it be 1pc or 2pc bsta with extra rice. he once or thrice told me that i am his burger steak and i told him that he is my tocino. haha. corny namin. most of all, he also loves my God. those are few of my memories with him. i’d still smile thinking of it. i had so much fun. still im blessed for still having him,though things are different now.
dennis and me are not really bf-gf. we shared a mutual feeling. we decided not to commit for real for certain reasons:
1. i am not allowed to have a bf yet.
2. we have priorities, far more important from really being together.
3. we already enjoy what we have and we are really thankful to Him.
4. we believe that if it is God’s will that we wud be together, then let His will be done.
5. we will wait and pray.
i guess, that would give everybody who knows us that clearer picture of me and him. things changed. we became bestfriends. haha. too weird,actually too normal. its a long story. private. im still hurting. im too dramatic. we still share this mutual feeling but decided to give some time for ourselves. to give space. to give a break for certain reasons. painful ones. it is God’s will, im still thankful to him and to Him. they both made me realize many things in my life. more important things. i know God has a purpose for this. though im still hurting, i know it’ll be gone soon. ill be ok. we will be ok. but now, i have to pray. pray hard. everyday, thinking of what happened gives me more pain. i have to pray really hard. He’s my strength. He’s my rock. He’s my fortress. He is the real love of my life.
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02.17.05
Posted in Uncategorized at 2:40 am by mhee
Bumaba ako sa jeepney
Kung saan tayo’y dating magkatabi
Magkahalik ang pisngi nating dal’waNating dalawa
Panyo mo sa aking bulsaAng amoy mo’y naroon pa rin
Tawa nati’y humahalay
Sa init nating dalawaat ngayo’y wala na
Ikaw ay lumayo na
Naaalala ko ang mga gabing nakahiga sa ilalim ng kalawakan
Naaalala ko ang mga gabing magkatabi sa ulan
Kulay nang iyong ngiti
Tikwas ng iyong buhok
At ang lambot ng iyong labi
Iyong labi
Kahit anino mo sa malayo
Ay nais masulyapan
Upang mapawi
Ang lamig
song from spongecola,im listenign to it ryt now. hehe. well, iwent to skool yesterday to find out that there will be no classes,then i attended a briefing @ dti fro our eco project. now regular classes resume,boycott is over. im really praying that this will be over soon,pahirap din kasi tlga ung malayan isyu. today naman, i have and oop exam sa lab na wala akong pc terminal,grr tlg! anyways, i hope ill have good grades again, then class again sa eco,yuzon! i miss my friends, i mean yads and eric. miss hanging out with then,busy na kasi kami lahat. happy birthday anna,if u read this happpy birthday! dencio seems to be lazy,always.. haha. he is and nakakainis,haay. i wont think of him so much today,i got lots to do pa. we’ll see each other l8r,i hope he’s ok. i miss him though. i miss him. hehe.
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