03.10.08
post secret #1
09.12.07
i kinda hate how my life goes..
it feels so empty. not so fulfilling. and full of stupidity.
11.14.06
stucked
yeah.. i think so. im a bum forever (wag sna) and i RESENT love now!
aint that great!?
11.09.06
hay.. miserable!
for the longest time… i am still goin thru so much. i dont get why, i just need to getaway with it.. with all of it. there were days i thought im getting better, than yesterday… i dont know. i going around cirlces, or only just a small space left out.. i dont know if im empty or what…. i just wanted to be ok, to be normal again.. no pretentions. enjoying my life the way i am supposed to.. but then maybe, this is how it works, at least for me… a girl who gave her heart out twice and was left with a broken heart more than twice. its like ten times raise to the power of n. i just dont know, its not just about the crazy heart broken story… there is more to it, having finish college.. i still dont know what’s next, what is after this.. am i ready or just too stubborn to face it all. i cant say where my life is headed.. there are things that must be left out, i know… but i dont know if i had the power or just even the will to do so.. to step up.. to turn away from all of it. i guess, i am just used to having someone being there..
10.25.06
hmm.. what’s there to post?
whose there to read?
blogging.. i don’t miss it actually, but i feel i owe an update.. though nobody’s reading naman.
as of my last post, I was very angry.. all the words you can refer to to it, would best describe how i felt at that time. i felt betrayed and used.. for the second time around. it was a shame in short.
to make it worst, it was just the start of my agony.. it may sound so drama, but i really went through so much.. so much, that at one point i thought I was insane.. ahaha. it may not be obvious, but i felt crazy at one time. crying and laughing at the same time.. can be the worst and best feeling. it left a scar.. and that one can’t be erase. i have to step up… i have to move on and not hold back. it was full of misery.. i never really expected that will happen again, not with him. but it happened.. and all is history now.
09.25.06
YOU!!!
AND YES YOU…. I DUNNO IF ULL BE ABLE TO READ THIS.. ANG MASASABI KO LANG
“AYOS KA AH….”
09.20.06
everything is blur..
yeah, it seems.. there are so many things goin thru my mind, i wish.. i knew better how to handle this things. hay… im so stressed out. i need a bit of my life before this thesis career mode, when everything.. was ok, was clear.. and was there… i missing it.
09.08.06
missssshhhuss tooo sssooommmeeee bbbusssyyy bee!
missing u… for so many reasons… and i dunno even why.
sob…. sigh!